Plodding Along, Singing a Song, Walking in a Aber Wonderland

November 2, 2009 at 6:07 pm | In Studies | 4 Comments
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Well, as I have said before, studying has been a bit hard going since the birth of our daughter six months ago (the fastest six months of my life!).  I have found it particularly hard to strike the right balance between studying for my course, and fulfilling my responsibilities as a parent.  This has become increasingly difficult over recent weeks as my daughter has started to slip into a regular sleeping pattern.  Until recently, she usually went to sleep quite late and would normally be awake to greet me when I got in from work.  Just recently, however, she has started going to bed much earlier and there have been many occasions when I don’t see her at all when I get in from work.  As a result of this, I tend to try and spend as much time as possible with her on my days off.  Unfortunately, these were the days that I used to do the large bulk of my studying.  I find it quite hard to study in the evening when I get in from work, it’s very hard to concentrate on studying after a busy day in the library.  I try to do at least an hour in the evening whenever I can, but it is not the same as dedicating a day to some serious study.

Due to the studying I need to do, and the decreased time in which to do it, I have had to cut some things out of my personal life for the short-term.  For example, I used to play football every Tuesday night without fail for the best part of 16 years.  I have temporarily stopped going now whilst I use the extra time this gives me to catch up on my studies and get some serious work done.  Sadly this has had an impact on my rapidly expanding waistline…by the time I get back to playing football I could well be subject to ‘who ate all the pies?’ type chants.  Not good for the old self-esteem!  Depressing though this is (it’s amazing what kicking a ball around can do for your stress levels!), it was a necessary move to give me just a little more time.

My progress has not been helped by the two modules I have been working on: Collection Management and Research in the Profession.  Yep, I thought Information Retrieval was a tricky module to plough through.  I think I can safely file these on the shelf marked ‘irksome’ (there’s an underused word!).  To be fair, I don’t know if that is down to the content of the modules, or just my state of mind whilst trying to complete them.  In fact I should find the Collection Management module very interesting as I have been doing a lot of work related to this module in recent months.  Maybe it is my state of mind. Anyway, I think the end of the tunnel may be within sight.  After some fairly arduous drafting (I’m sure it wasn’t this difficult on previous assignments!), I think I am almost at a point where I can stuff my assignment in an envelope and pass it onto the Royal Mail.  Here’s hoping anyway.

Once the Collection Management module has been sent off, I just have the Research in the Profession module to complete before moving on to the optional modules.  Easier said than done, but I aim to get both complete by the end of the month.  I’ve just got to the point now where maybe it won’t hurt to send-off a couple of duff assignments.  After all, I understand that getting good marks in the coursework is not as important as getting a good mark on the dissertation so maybe that should be my priority.  I am fortunate enough to be in quite a good position at the moment in terms of marks so surely a few sub-60s aren’t going to hurt are they??  I think I have been saddled with this ‘must maintain good scores’ mentality when what I should really be doing is getting the assignments done and focus my energies on researching for a good, solid dissertation.  It all seems so easy when you written down.  If only putting that into practice was as easy!

Time To Up The Pace

January 15, 2009 at 8:04 pm | In Studies | 2 Comments
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Well, here I am, the wrong side of Christmas and the realisation hits me that I need to up my pace pretty radically.  I have been working on the same module since the middle of September and it feels like I am never going to get it finished.  Although I have pretty much maintained the same pace as last year, it is really not fast enough.  To attend the study school in April I needed to complete three modules (only needed to get two done last year) and I haven’t even done two yet.  This further complicated by the fact that I am going to be a father in April, so I won’t be going to the study school in April anyway.  Unfortunately, this has had the psychological impact of making me think I have more time than I really have and meaning I have taken my foot off the peddle a bit. Problem is I need to get those three modules done by June if I am to go to study school in September, which is an absolute necessity.  With a baby due in April, the next few months are going to be very stressful.

But I guess I am not alone and, so long as I spend as much time as possible on my studies, I should be ok.  The main problem is the fact that I have ‘the fear’.  The fear of sending off those assignments when they aren’t quite right yet.  The fear of sending off those assignments and failing.  The fear that I will be found out.  The fear that I am not really cut out for this librarian malarky.  But I guess the fear is just that.  Fear.  Sometimes you need to bite the bullet, face down your fears and get those assignments sent off.  I mean, they can’t really be that bad, can they?

 

Anyways, here’s a little ditty on Web 2.0 and the iPhone.  Enjoy.

 

Days of Study

November 25, 2008 at 11:10 pm | In Studies | 4 Comments
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I am fortunate enough to get one day of study leave every fortnight whilst completing my course.  This is a really big help as trying to balance a full-time job and studying an MSc is no easy task.  Initially I thought I would prefer to have my fees covered by my employer, but over time I have to admit I actually prefer to get the time instead.  As well as studying throughout the week, it is a massive help to have a whole day with which I can focus on my studies.  It has certainly has paid off as I have been fortunate enough to have received marks for my assignments that I never would have expected.  I certainly believe that these study days have played an important role in my achievements on the course so far.

Having said that, sometimes study days can be a bit of a drag.  I tend to start and end my day as if I was at work, so I start at 9am and finish at 5pm (although recently I have been working right through to 6pm – glutton for punishment or what!?).  The entire day is spent indoors ploughing through the module pack or doing research for assignments.  It can get a little draining.  I keep telling myself that I should break my day up into little chunks to make the workload more manageable (this would seem to be a very sound idea when studying Information Retrieval!).  But, despite my better judgement, I end up having very few breaks throughout the day, mainly for fear that my mind will wonder and never return (there are just too many distractions out there – particularly when your course revolves around the internet, perhaps the biggest distraction ever invented). 

Despite the hard slog, I do tend to break for lunch and tea breaks across the day.  During one of these breaks I tend to take a short walk to my local shop to buy my newspaper and a few supplies.  I say supplies, they normally consist of a packet of pickled onion Monster Munch (prefer the Flamin’ Hot ones personally, but hey), a bar of chocolate and, the brain food to end all brain foods, a Pot Noodle (curry flavour).  There is nothing better to get the mind going than a good old fashioned Pot Noodle.  I know some people say it is best to eat healthy when studying as the vitamins and minerals help the mind to conentrate.  Well, for me, it’s a Pot Noodle every time (although sometimes tea and crumpets is a big help!).  Having bought my supplies I settle back into the routine and make time for a break later in the day.

Despite my best laid plans, every now and then you just have a bad day studying.  Take today for example.  I spent the best part of the morning thinking of ways to approach my assignment.  The real bugger was that the opening I had come up with was exactly the same as an article I had found.  Try as I might, I couldn’t get it out of my head.  And I knew I had to as, well, the author of said article just so happens to be the very person to mark it.  Plagiarism is frowned on at the best of times, let alone when you have plagiarised the person who is marking your work.  Very poor form.

So anyway, I wrote one draft.  Stopped.  Paced around my house reading through other articles that I had found.  Started writing again.  Stopped.  This was getting me nowhere.  Don’t you just hate first drafts?  Whenever you read them back, they always cause you to think you are losing it.  Did I really write that?  But it’s so bad.  Am I a fraud?  Will I get found out?  Will someone turn around and say that I have been rumbled and I never had the capability in the first place?  So many doubts.  So many worries.  So few words written on the page.  Don’t you just hate writer’s block?  Not even a curry Pot Noodle can help me now.

And then, after hours of ‘freewriting’, tearing out hair and chowing down on some comfort food, you get that ‘eureka!’ moment.  Suddenly, you find an article that really hits the spot.  Inspires you.  Urges you on.  Suddenly you feel energised.  Determined.  You’re back in the game.  You don’t want to stop.  It feels so good you just want to keep typing and typing until you get that first draft finished.  Then you have something to play with.  Then you have something to mould.  Then you have…….something.  And boy does that feel good.  And then you look up and see that it is 6pm and you have to be somewhere.  Just when you thought it was going to be the longest study day of your life, it’s over.  Study days eh?  Where would I be without them?  A lot more stressed but about a stone lighter.  It’s amazing what those Pot Noodles do to your waistline you know.

Closure

October 28, 2008 at 10:47 pm | In Studies | 3 Comments
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I always hate that spell between sending off my coursework and receiving my marks.  For some reason I just cannot get closure.  I spend the weeks and, in this case, months, worrying about whether I did enough to get a pass on my last assignment.  Until I get those marks, everything I read seems to enter through my eyes before getting lost somewhere in my head.  Of course, what doesn’t help is studying information retrieval whilst you are waiting!  There is a module guaranteed to make your head spin!

Anyway, I am writing this because, finally, I have received my marks for the Sources and Services module.  Closure at last!  Thankfully, after all my fretting, I received good marks (better than I expected) so I can finally put the module behind me and concentrate on the next batch of assignments.  If only it wasn’t Information Retrieval……

Study Fatigue

September 16, 2008 at 4:45 pm | In Studies | 2 Comments
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Brought about by a day of reading the Information Retrieval module pack.  Much as I am grateful for one days study leave a fortnight, it does have its downside from time to time.  I need to rest my brain.

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